New Year's Eve

So it's 8:20 on New Year's Eve. I have been invited to about three or four parties but all I really feel like doing is sitting on my ass playing video games and getting drunk in the privacy of my own home. I know this is not cool but I just don't WANT to do anything. I am not looking forward to the new year in fact I feel like I am just getting older with nothing to show for my aging process. I feel less intelligent and less accomplished than when I was 18. I sincerely hope 2007 is brighter than 2006. I am going to drag my ass out of the house and go do SOMETHING with my friends and try to put on a happy face. Hopefully I can change my mood just by forcing a smile. Wish me luck !!

"You find out who your friends are."

So it's funny how the rough times in life really show you who your friends are. They come out of the strangest places too. The one you THOUGHT would be there bail on you and the ones you would have never expected seem to show up when you need them. Even if it's just a quick "hang in there" or a "what's goin on ?". I am quickly finding out that just because you don't see or talk to someone everyday doesn't mean they are not the TRUE friends that will be there when you're down. In fact those that are HERE are the ones who have made me lose faith people. Those that have been away or not around are the ones keeping me up. Except for ONE friend here. But I am impressed that there are certain people (Mike, David, and Lindz) that I haven't seen in months or even years that are "here for me" not physically but to talk to. Yeah Lindz I have kept in touch with quite frequently, but David I never really get to hear from except in cases of funerals and hardships. But Mike was especially odd. An ex BF who I hadn't talked to in a WHILE has come back into my life in a small way. Still haven't seen him since like 2002 but we've gotten back in touch over email and he has surprisngly become a pretty cool person to have as a friend. And what's great is I can ask his advice for stuff about my dating life because he was apart of it once. Although we didn't get to see each other much even then, he still got to know me pretty well and it's nice to have an outsiders/insiders point of view. Well, I guess with as much as I've screwed up for myself lately at least I still have a handful of TRUE friends and I am thankful for that. Lindz, David, Mike, Thanks you guys for being there when I need you. You really don't know how much your little parts help me feel better.

My first blog, bring on the rants !!

Ok so quick rundown of my life... I'm 24 and working on a divorce from my first marriage, to a soldier who went to war a sweet and decent man and came back a monster. I work for the state and am going to school at the local community college. I'm a UT Longhorns fan and love all things Texas !! I like Music and Dancing and enjoy video games and board games. I am a big people person and I talk A LOT !!